Lack of Motivation/self-confidence

In my non-writing related life, it seems like everytime I try to do something right - it goes all wrong. I had the day to myself today and accomplished nothing. I couldn't get out of the "why do I try at all?" slump. Took me a long time, but I'm starting to come out of it. LOL of course it's 7:30 pm now.

It helped that when I checked in on the writer's blogs I follow that a few of them are talking about why they write and how they stick it out no matter what else is going on in their lives.

I had that determination - it left me though. I still have the desire, the pull to create, but something is really weighing me down. It could be stress. But I'm so completely tired. I've been thinking it's all mental, but I wonder if it's physical. I could be coming down with something - it is starting flu season again soon - and I've spent the day cleaning mold from a leak in the basement we misgaged where it came from. Hubby's been having headaches too.

Now that the air's off and I've cleaned it up ... maybe things will improve.

The stress is still there - in particular one little thing ready to blow up in my face. I pray that works out. I plan on checking on the update late tonight or early in morning - after I actually make some progress on something. I could use all the prayers I can get that this is resolved ... now. It should be. I did what I'm supposed to.